Monday, 30 September 2013

autumn bucket list

Having a lot on with university, this autumn I want to make the most of the change in season and find different ways I can relax. I've seen a few of these autumn bucket lists floating around on Pinterest, so I was inspired to make my very own! In America it seems that the 'fall' season is full of pumpkins. Here in England we only occasionally carve a pumpkin for halloween, but they are definitely not easily accessible. Any of these I complete I will photograph either properly for the blog, or at least for Instagram (@therabbitwood) so here we go...
  1. Buy a lovely scented candle and light it in the evenings.
  2. Wear dark lipstick for a day.
  3. Visit a fireworks bonfire.
  4. Take a picture of the changing season.
  5. Decorate room for autumn.
  6. Go for a walk in the leaves.
  7. Eat some new soup.
  8. Watch Breaking Bad.
  9. Buy a LUSH bath bomb and relax for an evening.
I hope everyone is well. What is your Autumn / Fall bucket list?

Jas xo

Thursday, 26 September 2013

Favourite Autumn Lip Products









I have quite a few lip products at the moment which I absolutely adore. It seems to be the one product that I have hit the jackpot on and found things which I would happily use over and over because the colours and formulas really work with me and my lifestyle. I thought I write a little blog post and share them all with you and the world of the internet. If you can recommend anything to try, or have tried any of these, then please comment and let me know! So, here we go...

Wednesday, 25 September 2013

Just Keep Swimming

Gah. So. University started again this week. I always knew that it would be a bit difficult to get back into the swing of thing and I was right. I have to stay at Jack's house every night I have uni the next day, which I love, but it means I have such a lot of time away from my home.

We now wake up two hours earlier at 6:15am and usually get back at about 6:00pm. Getting up early has never been too much of a problem for me, so on the first day I was just tired and nervous. Jack started at 9:30am but I didn't have anything until lunch time. After he left I found two of my friends in the library where also in early which I was so very grateful for, so I chatted for them and calmed down a bit as anxiety was starting to creep in. By midday, I decided that my anxiety was too bad to go to the lecture, and that I would meet Jack for lunch and work some more in the library until we got the bus home. The afternoon was really long. I was on my own, my breathing and anxiety where starting to wobble a bit and I was so exhausted and feeling a bit ill. Right there in the library I just tried to entertain myself and distract myself with various different internet things. There was a really lovely girl who saw I wasnt going to the lecture and looked a bit upset, and came to ask if I was okay. She also followed up with an email later saying that she was there If I needed a chat which was so lovely. Despite not seeing everyone for probably half a year or so, everyone treats my like they are my friend, and they are all very kind to me. I did manage to get a good start on my new project though, and get a really good book from the library, but it was not a great day at all. Jack was pretty stressed out and miserable that day too (because of uni). So although we tried our best to comfort each other it was hard work because I think all either of us wanted, well especially me, was a lot of attention and TLC and a reminder that everything was going to be okay. It was a bit of a teary night, and I just remember waking up in the morning crying again because I didn't want the day to be a repeat.

So, although that morning was not fantastic and I could have SO easily curled up and gone back to sleep, I made myself go in as I was not going to go in for just one day and let it get the better of me. I didn't want to, but I did. And I'm glad I did, because surprisingly it was a much better day. My friends were in the library relatively early too, so time with them really calmed me down, and then I had the rest of the morning to just work on my new project. I did not go to the lecture, but I felt better about it. I think small, slow but sure stops are going to be best for me here. I'm proud that I am at the stage where I can work in the uni library and feel okay. I met Jack for lunch again feeling pretty good, and then helped out a friend set up a studio for her shoot in the early afternoon. Everything was finished by about 3:00pm so we where able to buy popcorn and relax until the bus. The bus didn't turn up for another two hours, but it was okay because we were just chatting and eating and being all lovely. We then chilled for the evening on Minecraft and eating yummy food.

Setting up the studio.

A preview of some work-in-progress development and research. More coming soon.

And now for tonight's mini haul. I just made my first ever purchase on ASOS.com, it's just a basic scoop neck basic top, but I'm so very much looking forward to it arriving. When you have limited money to spend you really do focus down on things you both need AND want, and the satisfaction of buying it is all the greater. I also just ordered a raindrop design iPhone case for about £1.50 on ebay which I am so very excited for - for anyone who knows me you know that I love the rain so this is pretty much my perfect thing ever. Plus the fact that it's really cheap. I love it. Last but not least I bought the book The Halloween Tree by Rad Bradbury which is the spooky novel for October for the book club that I run. I'm not sure when it will be arriving as it was a bit hard to source, but lets just hope that it will not be too long.


Right now, I'm feeling a bit stressed, teary, sad and anxious. I think it's just because this week has been mentally tiring and I just need a good relax session. Going to go to bed soon, but will probably watch the new Downton Abbey first! I have been experiementing with meditation to calm my anxiety so I may give that a bit of a go too. I hope everyone has been having a great week, I'd love to hear about it!

Love from
Jas
xo


Monday, 23 September 2013

Loepsie's Hair Mask Review


I have been following Loepsie on youtube for about a year now, and I love all of her videos. She is a youtube beauty guru from the Netherlands, who loves hair care and fantasy. Recently my hair has been really annoying me, it's about waist length now, but I feel like it looks unhealthy and is really hard to manage. I think sometime soon I will definitely go to the hairdressers and have quite a few inches cut off, but in the mean time I would like to make my hair as manageable as possible.

Saturday, 21 September 2013

An Interview with Lou at Bluebird ♥


Lou is one of the lovely people I have had the pleasure to meet through blogging. She owns a wonderful kind of beauty and lifestyle blog, and today we are each answering questions on each other's blogs! Make sure to go and check out her blog to see my answers. Everything is under the cut :)

Wednesday, 18 September 2013

I survived my first day back at university

As some of you know if you follow me elsewhere, this year particularly I have been suffering with anxiety. It's something I am striving every day to bring under my control. Last term at university I had too bad anxiety to go in and had also lost all motivation to go in anyway. I managed to pass that term, but it made me feel horrible. 

I am really looking forward to getting back to work in what is my final year this year, but things like sitting in lectures is something that I know I will find hard. I am a few weeks into my CBT so I am on my way to getting back to normal, but not completely by any stretch of the imagination. Today I had an induction lecture for an hour and it just seemed impossible for me. I was so worried that lectures this year were not going to happen. I was, however, determined. I spoke about it to my CBT leader, and I asked Jack to wait at the university while I was there. I feel like no one understands anxiety, unless you experience it yourself. I don't mean getting anxious about a presentation or getting anxious for an interview. I mean not being able to walk down the street alone without honestly feeling like the world is crashing in right on you. I feel like when you have a physical condition people are willing to rally round you, they ask if you are okay, they reward you for getting through a nasty treatment. They don't forget about it usually either. But with something like anxiety or I can imagine, any kind of mental struggle, people just don't get it. 

Anyway, I did it! I went to uni, I sat through a lecture, I took notes, I saw all the people I've missed. I was fine. I enjoyed it. It was a struggle, it was not nice, but I did it. And I was so proud. I kind of felt like when I came out I deserved this massive applause and praise, but I suppose to everyone else it's just sitting in a theatre for an hour. I got a bit disheartened when it didn't happen. But I am so proud of myself, now I know that I can do it. This year will be a bit difficult but I'm also feeling positive and happy about it. It's 8 months until the end of the year. I did it, I did it, I diiiiiddddd iiitttt :D

Yay me. :)

Monday, 16 September 2013

In Shower Moisturiser, 'cause life is too short.

I will admit now, that never do I ever, EVER, moisturise my body. I will also admit that I have never used up a body lotion, never really liked one, and never enjoyed using one either. Gahhhh I just hate moisturising my arms and legs, it's such a chore. It's boring. It gets under your nails. It takes ages to dry. It is sticky and gross. I never notice a difference if I do anyway.

Sunday, 15 September 2013

A holiday to the beach


Hey lovelies! It's been a while (a whole week!). I'm back from our little holiday and have written a bit about what we've been up to this week. Overall it was a great holiday, but guess what - I forgot all my skincare products (ALL OF THEM!) and only bought minimal makeup. Not too bothered about the make up, as I will happily go without it especially on holiday, but I have dry skin and no moisturiser for a week did not go down too well. We also vlogged this week for the first time ever, which was a bit shaky but good, so keep an eye out for that too. I can't wait to get back to regular blogging again, I have missed it sooooooo much.

I hope everyone is feeling okay and that you've had a great week :) Everything is under the cut!

Sunday, 8 September 2013

Holiday... Tomorrow!

Has anyone ever tried to keep a handwritten diary? I know for certain that I have tried probably once a year ever since I was about eight years old and never got further than about a month into it. I think the main reason I give up is because I look back at what I've written and I either don't like the handwriting or don't like the what I've written. I can't seem to get past that barrier. I love writing diary entries on my blog, although it does limit me to how much information I can disclose as people I know do follow me on here too. I think online its good to get a balance between personal feelings and informtaion about what you've done. It helps me not look back on my posts and dislike them, as they are honest but mostly positive. They are my memories.  But I like the idea of this blog being my diary, my journal, as well as everything else. 

Right now I am just counting down the days until we go back to university. It's my final year, and although I am nervous, and worried that my anxiety will make it harder, I am so ready to just get stuck into it and finish this god damn degree! I can't wait to either study more (probably not for a few years) or just get a full time job which will give me enough money to move out and start my life properly. I know this is what all my blog posts come down to eventually, but hey ho, it's a big thing for me at the moment! Soon, my pretty. Soon. 

Tuesday, 3 September 2013

♥ August Favourites ♥

Oh yes, my kitty cat Rory snook into the photo I was trying to take for this month. Bless his cotton socks. But, here is what I have been loving over the past month.